15 Apr 2015

BUILDING BRIDGES [out of love]

FullSizeRenderConformity is a survival mechanism. To gain acceptance [love] + success [means to survive], it often helps to go with the flow of the masses. I see this on a small scale with family + on a large scale with society. But conforming can be quite painful for some of us if it doesn’t feel natural to do/be what the masses are. It’s the fear of judgment that encourages most to continue conforming , even when it’s painful. I am learning that our judgment of others has very little to do with the person we are judging. Our discomfort is less with the person, but more with the mirror that is being shown to us, often a boundary that we need to hurdle//dissipate.
I absolutely adore my family + have always felt supported, but we have some major differences that make it difficult to understand one another. Growing up, I was a drifter. I couldn’t commit to one social group because not a single one felt right. I always had a lingering feeling of being judged, never felt that embrace I longed for. I felt a connection with a few people here + there, but it’s been a very slow process to find my people + roadmap. And with that lengthy process, I’ve acquired some major wounds along the way. It’s when I’ve conformed + sacrificed a far distance from my authentic self in hopes of receiving love, that I’ve acquired my deepest wounds. I’ve always pulled out of those situations + made it out okay, but some of them have taken major work to heal from. I’ve always felt more comfortable alone, receiving my love + healing from the Earth. Yet, I still longed for a community, to be loved + fully embraced in my totality. A lot of those feelings dissipated while I was in my twenties as I found new community on my travels + throughout my college years.
With getting married + becoming a mom, I’ve felt a new level of pressure + judgment; very similar to that old pressure I felt as a kid [to be something that didn’t feel natural or comfortable for me]. My partner + children can now also be judged by the choices I make, therefore I find myself making choices that don’t always serve me.
I’ve slowly been digging through every boundary I was taught. By my family. By my community. I’ve always been a wild one, but I’ve also always felt this pressure not to disappoint my family by being too different from others [my mom + brother are the ones that are most uncomfortable with “stepping outside the box” + are typically the ones that encourage me to do/be like the masses].
Lately, I’m being shown with great clarity the pain I’ve acquired over the years without a community that feels like home. Without feeling [truly] loved by my peers. Without having a roadmap that encourages healing + blossoming in my life.
Slowly I’m giving less attention to the generational gaps + gender gaps + cultural gaps + societal gaps that were giving me a bit of paranoia. Even if someone else is judging our differences [which I think I sense easily], it hurts less than it used to. I can feel that I am on the verge of seeing judgment in a whole new light, where it will no longer inflict any pain on me + instead be a source of great growth.
I think one of my greatest karmic lessons in this life is releasing my fear of judgment. And through the healing of my wounds + releasing of that fear, I will also help others heal + release their fear of being judged.
With much love + support from my tribe, I’m finding deeper layers of my authentic self, which feels like pure magic. Because I feel so beautifully safe, the armor of protection I’ve gotten so used to carrying has started to fall off + I feel myself softening. With new wisdom + guidance + roadmaps from my teachers, I feel like I am doing some deep, deep karmic work on my precious little SELF. So that I can build those bridges of love. Those bridges that actually connect us, not separate us.

6 Mar 2015

GAIA MAGIC {feelin’ it}

FEELIN’ IT // I felt it when I was young. then lost touch with it during my early twenties while practicing Christianity + then when I got so attached to science. [both swing the pendulum too far, claiming to know truth about such mystery + completely denying the magic of Gaia.] but my loverboys especially, make it seem so silly to think humans have figured out all of these formulas that invalidate the magic in all of this!
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4 Feb 2015

LESS BOUNDARIES {more security}

BOOK WORM // The holiday break was so nice. I overdosed on snuggles with my boys, got in extra time with family + friends, + I read/re-read quite a few books. One was No Boundary by Ken Wilber.
The simple fact is that we live in a world of conflict + opposites because we live in a world of boundaries. Here is the human predicament: the firmer one’s boundaries, the more entrenched are one’s battles. The more I hold onto pleasure, the more I fear pain. The more I pursue goodness, the more I am obsessed with evil. The more I seek success, the more I dread failure. The harder I cling to life, the more terrifying death becomes.
MAMA HUSSY no boundary ken wilber I’ve been re-reading this book since college. over a decade. It shifts my perspective a little more every time I read it. It’s been a while, so it felt great to dig in over the holidays. Since I re-read it this time, I’ve been pushing each boundary I come across. Not in a rebellious way. But in a “Is this really what makes ME + my family happy + healthy?” way. I’ve been taught a lot of limiting beliefs from my mom + the small town in which I grew up. Limiting beliefs founded in fear, masked in rationality + caution. While I appreciate some of them + might even keep some of them, I’ve realized how most of them keep me [+ my family] fearful + stagnant. I am trying to do life from a place of love, not fear. This doesn’t mean reckless. In fact, I think love is very wise. I feel much more clear-minded + more secure + more empowered when I am acting + thinking from a place of love instead of a place of fear.
*I want to share this powerful book with others, so I’m giving away a copy of No Boundary. Instructions: simply comment on this post with your email address. I’ll announce the winner on February 14! Happy Valentine’s Day + good luck!

3 Feb 2015

MOVING RIGHT ALONG {manifesting those big dreams}

imageMOVING RIGHT ALONG // in September, we decided to start house hunting in our hometown for schools + to create that smalltown, pedestrian lifestyle. per usual, I jumped the gun + transferred the boys to Norman schools before finding a house. I’ve enjoyed all of the extra time with our family + Norman tribe. but we still haven’t found that dream home + our commute is total beatdown. I tend to be slightly neurotic + rarely let a dream die, but I’m trying to listen to the whispers of a bigger picture. so we’ve decided to reassess things + are back in OKC fulltime while we see just how big we can dream! *this pic is out front of an awesome house we looked at by the talented architect Gemino, who studied under Frank Lloyd Wright.

29 Jan 2015

MYSTIC MOON CIRCLE {high vibrational sisterhood}

MOON SISTERHOOD // The truth is, we don’t have a road map for this experience of Woman. Ancient teachings and initiations have been hidden or silenced. And so we have blindly followed in the Masculine energies of going and pushing, all the while fumbling in the dark. We have been taught to use fear as a compass, competition as a weapon, and self-judgment or self-doubt as our default setting. -Achintya Devi
MAMA HUSSY sisters of the moonI have always had a major awareness to our tie to the moon’s cycles. So I was ecstatic when I found Goddess Rising, where I could delve in deeper with the moon’s rhythm + ride the power it has to offer us. As a part of my commitment to my holistic health, I decided to participate in the Sisters of the Moon with Goddess Rising [Achintya]; a mystic moon circle of sisters. Through ritual celebration, intuitive practices, and creative expression Achintya invites us to awaken and deepen our divine consciousness, feminine truth, strength and empowerment. Emotionally, physically, spiritually, mentally, sexually, psychically. In our Moon Temples we connect with the magic of both the full and new moon energies, align with celestial influences and reveal relevant astrology to assist us in each lunar cycle. We celebrate the sacred rhythm of birth, life, death and rebirth in nature, reflected as the living womb wisdom and emotional intelligence within us.
I’ve already gained a huge amount of clarity + have received some beautiful affirmations since the new year has started. It’s so nice to feel the support + love from this sisterhood while I try to manifest some of the biggest dreams I’ve ever dreamed.

28 Jan 2015

ACUPUNCTURE {holistic health}

Finding the ideal healthcare plan can take a long time + is ever-evolving as we age. I do not think there is a one-size-fits-all healthcare plan. After years of research + trying out so many things with an open mind + investing a lot of time + money, I have found a pretty solid system for myself at my age. I take the preventative medicine approach; I live a holistic lifestyle, trying to stay out of the [Western] doctors offices. This is a daily commitment for me; it takes a lot of honesty with myself [about my emotional + physical state] on the daily. It is a financial commitment because insurance doesn’t pay for most of these things. Currently, my perfect plan consists of a clean diet [mainly vegetarian + gluten free + dairy free] + hot yoga [love the heat!] + supplements + essential oils + acupuncture + chiropractic adjustments + exercise [outside as often as possible] + a whole lot of rest + love toward myself. Some of the services I receive feel like therapy sessions because the people I work with are so insightful + believe in a holistic approach to health. I also love supplementing with massages + colonics + cleanses + some coaching [with mah gurl, Rebecca] + reiki treatments [with Marilyn + Melissa at Be the Light] when I’m needing that extra support through a situation.
The treatment I experience the most powerful + holistic results with is acupuncture. Like with all of these things, I think it very much depends on the person working on/with you. A good relationship is imperative, with a clear understanding of the goal(s). Typical things acupuncture can help people with are back pain  + anxiety + digestion + allergies.
Like my naturopath, my acupuncturist believes that our health depends on both diet + mental/emotional health. Lisa + I have a great relationship, and we are able to read my body very well as a team + work together to move my chi. A few weeks ago she said my yin was low [duh! the  nighttime nursing is gettin’ me good], so she worked on balancing my yin + gave me a few suggestions to help bring up my yin. Lisa helps me with anything that I am working on or dealing with at the time, like my wrist cysts, my shoulder pain from holding Wolfey all day, my mama anxiety, cleansing my colon, a cold… My entire body benefits in ways I don’t even realize by simply making sure chi is moving freely without any blocks + raising my vibration. I’ve even noticed my face looking more youthful since I’ve been receiving regular acupuncture.

26 Jan 2015

THE MOTHER LODE {a series for the village}

Motherhood is where many women meet themselves, truly. A mama is as new as her baby. Both baby + mama need the nourishment + support of a tribe, a village. The village needs a return. Mothers need it. Fathers need it. Our babies need it. The Earth needs it. -Hannah Darling Fenn
My tribe is made up of my family + the beautiful + inspiring women I need on the daily [both physically + virtually]. My relationships with my woman-tribe are raw + vulnerable, a very powerful sisterhood I hadn’t experienced before motherhood. This bond is what inspired this series.
THE MOTHER LODE // This series is a compilation of mamas doing the daily mundane + getting creative + sharing their stories. When printed, I will also be telling some of the stories these mamas have shared with me; especially around the rarely discussed subjects of postpartum body + sexuality + breastfeeding [the pressure + struggles + joys] + partnership. I have loved the creative collaborative with each mama; deciding what to photograph + what elements to pull into the shots. Mothers are fierce! I feel so honored to share space with these women.
This mama series will be displayed in an exhibition, this Spring. I’m so passionate about the bigger vision for this powerful series; which is to expand the [mama] village by creating camaraderie + connections through the stories of struggle + strength that we experience because of motherhood.
While I am featuring many adoptive mamas, a large portion of this series is mamas celebrating their [naked] flesh in their postpartum mama bodies. A place that I think mamas struggle to exist in + struggle to enjoy fully! I am also hoping this exhibit influences other mamas to celebrate their bodies + exist in their bodies + enjoy their bodies. [Below is a little sneak peek of some of the images that will be printed in this exhibition. I have also posted more here on my Greer Inez website.]

24 Nov 2014

THE HEAD HUFF {musings}

Every mom does it! It’s free ecstasy for us mamas. My big boi even still gets huffed by mama. His baby smell is now very subtle + mixed in with a lot of rowdy-boy-smells, but I can still find it in there.

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20 Nov 2014

ESSENTIAL OILS {holistic health}

Sometimes I get a hesitancy in sharing my holistic ways, because I have this little voice in my head that says, the second you share your ways, they won’t work anymore + you’ll be in the emergency room with the flu. But I’m putting the superstitious voice aside today + sharing anyway.
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I’ve been using essential oils on my family for quite some time now + I can’t go a day without using them. In fact, these oils have my mind blown. I think they are all part of the intelligent design of the Universe. I believe that the Earth has all of the resources we need to stay healthy + happy. These oils can used in so many ways; facewash + pain reliever + stress/anxiety relief + eczema + tummy aches + flu shot… They can keep us out of the doctor’s office if we just know how to use them.
Essential oils are super effective when diffused + applied topically + obviously consumed. I diffuse oils in our home all day long + I rub them on the bottom of our feet, daily. I can’t quite get the boys to consume them, but I’m all about the consumption when needed. I prefer the potency + food grade essential oils, so I order through Young Living. Below are some of my favorite oils + their uses.
If you are interested, a good place to start is the Premium kit. All if the oils below [+ more] are in the Premium kit; these oils are such a SOLID LINE-UP + will last you a long time.

ESSENTIAL OILS holistic healthTo get started, follow these steps:

  1. Head on over to the sign-up page.
  2. Select Sign up as: “Wholesale Member” (this will get you 24% off forever & always!)
  3. It should be done for you, but just to be safe, make sure that my member number is both the Sponsor ID & Enroller ID: 1753627.
  4. Fill out your name, billing & shipping address, SSN, and contact info. (Your SSN will never be used unless you make over $600/year selling Young Living products, in which case they’d send you a 1099 as required by law at the end of the year. If you don’t decide to pursue the business end of YL, it will never ever be used.)
  5. Read and Check the Terms & Conditions
  6. Create a username, password and pin. Write these down so you can quickly + easily access the site again! :
  7. Here’s the GOOD STUFF! Select your Premium Starter Kit! I prefer the bamboo diffuser for its farther reach + timer + it’s sleek look. It is only $10 more than the standard Premium Starter Kit.
  8. I recommend clicking “No, thank you.” for Step 3. No need to sign up for Essential Rewards at this point!
  9. Enter your payment info.
  10. CHECK OUT! Be sure you get all the way to the confirmation page.

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12 Nov 2014

LITHOTHERAPY {holistic health}

Processed with VSCOcam with f2 presetI’ve been trying to get lithotherapy regularly. Lithotherapy is an energy healing technique using crystals + minerals. My therapists also do reiki during my treatments. Reiki is a Japanese energetic healing technique. I’ve gotten reiki treatments by quite a few practitioners + in many different parts of the world; with + without healing stones. I prefer to go to practitioners that do lithotherapy along with the reiki, simply because I believe in the energetic healing vibrations of stones + crystals.
I know this is hippie shit to so many, but energy is something that makes so much sense to me. So I experience powerful healing with this kind of energy work. Continue reading »